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Down and Dirty

I think about him every day,
the way
he made my body quake.
I lie awake
him touching me 
once more.
Such feelings I abhor.  
I’m longing for a man
who doesn’t give a damn
about me.
It’s been three
months since I cut contact,
still I want him back. 
Long as he stays away
I should be ok. 

This is the gritty
truth about recovery. 
We don’t suddenly decide
to become butterflies 
and fly away
I’m a caterpillar first,
crawling on the earth,
wanting to fly into his arms
as though The Law of Diminishing Returns
doesn’t apply. 
So I cry,
admit how I feel,
and continue to heal. 

About Jen and the Furries

Hello and welcome. I’m a 50 something woman who’s probably awake when she should be sleeping. Oh, and there are animals, because who doesn’t have pets?


9 thoughts on “Down and Dirty

  1. Sometimes we, like caterpillars, need to wrap ourselves in a cocoon. There we can heal and become strong and beautiful. Then we fly!

    Posted by Patricia | August 21, 2021, 3:20 PM
  2. If only we could speed the healing process…

    Posted by Clowie | August 22, 2021, 2:01 AM
  3. WOW! Powerful poem Jen!!
    All I can say is what you wrote is so my Ex-fiance & myself.
    I miss him still. At least when we still spoke on the phone that was something. 3 years now…no contact. *sighs*
    {{hugs}} Sherri-Ellen

    Posted by BellaDharma an LadyMew | August 22, 2021, 1:26 PM
  4. Hang in there. You have made it sound like you have quit sugar? Cheers,H

    Posted by helentastic67 | August 23, 2021, 12:24 AM
  5. Beautiful, moving , so relatable. Pain and heartbreaks mold us to be stronger and resilient. But if only we can make it quick and just fly away.

    Posted by Island Traveler | August 24, 2021, 2:02 PM
  6. Healing is fundamental and it likes to be elusive, but it can be found!

    Posted by Brian | August 26, 2021, 7:59 AM

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