My dear friends, I am exhausted.
The vet put Molly on an additional medication – gabapentin – and for a few days she was a different dog. She was interactive and energetic. But it didn’t last. At least her pain is lessened,
Kitten had her spay surgery yesterday. Once home she was clawing at the crate to get out and I was afraid she’d harm herself so I let her out. That was a mistake. She did harm herself and last night I made a mad dash to the emergency vet clinic a half hour away. Kitten underwent another surgery to repair the damage and was doing well afterward. Once I heard the news I crashed.
Normal living is hard, but trying to do it all when you’re healing from extensive trauma is nearly impossible.
But there is hope. Recently I started finding dimes. Irony? No. Each dime came after I asked the Universe for help. I don’t suddenly believe in deities, but I do believe in String Theory and I believe in you. I found one yesterday and the small act sustained me enough to get through that awful time.
But it’s not enough. So I brazenly come to you asking for your help. Please do your thing, whatever works for you, and send me some positive people in my life. I need friends. I need physical presence. I need hugs, smiles, someone to sit with me when I’m too tired to do anything else. You are good and loving souls and I know you can make it happen. So give those folks a little opposing force and push them toward me. And thank you.
Please note I am not asking for advice on how I can find friends. I have no energy, otherwise why would I be asking for unproven help of people I’ve never met. Save your well-intentioned but poorly-timed advice for another time and place.
Oh, and if you think now would be a good time to take advantage of me when I’m down, I suggest you rethink that. I’m hurting and I’m tired but I’m also madder than hell and if the situation required it would stab you in the heart without flinching.
Please hold up Kitten and Molly with your love.
Dogpaddling Through Life 
Sounds like a bad week! Hope the kitten behaves. Maybe she needs the gabapentin! Poor Mollie. Sending hugs to all.
Maybe she needs a different home.
Didn’t you try that? She’s a very pretty cat.
Sending a cyber hugs and good thoughts your wishes are fulfilled. I understand how hard it can get at times and the pain of loving animals that suffer. We just put one if ours on Gabapentin yesterday.
I am grateful there are medications for them. I don’t want her to suffer. But I fear in my current state I’m not the most effective advocate for Molly.
Understand. The decisions are not easy. Been there way too many times. I hope somehow it gives you comfort that you’re an incredible woman with a huge giving heart–the best fur mommy ever. Try to let that seep into your brain chemistry. A lot of us out here respect and love you.
I’ve been through all this with my old dogs and I feel your pain. Sending best wishes. ❤
Sending a virtual hug and positive vibes your way.
Jen, I completely relate to the exhaustion. I wonder what’s happened to the strong, energetic person I used to be before death. The other day I had something scary happen, I just didn’t know what to do. A couple hours later in Lowe’s, a man out of the blue approached and focused on my questions, and when done said: it’s hard asking for help, it’s hard for me too. Wow! I was stunned. Hugs this moment, I’d run over and sit with you and listen. I’m listening for your cries in the wind …
And, I’m with you. I ask for companionship, someone to just sit and be with me…
May those persons be nudged toward you.
I am sending you positivity and virtual hugs from across the pond Jen.
we send lots of hugs your way and hope that all things land at the right place like da dime in da music box.. … I feel with you, is it the time or is it me but currently things suck like they are… yes!
Sending you hugs, Jen. I know how hard it can be seeing animals in pain. Sometimes I wish we could rewind or fast forward life…
Me too.
Hugs and purrs for Kitten, Molly, and you, Jen.
Love and soft purring from RainbowCatsx14 (plus Pippa and her six kittens temporarily…everyone now has a home to go to!). And hugs and love from me.
I’m grateful to all who are loving and holding up Pippa and her babies. Gentle nose boops to all.
Will email you some pics!
Dear Jen, I’ve just rediscovered your blog and was sorry to learn you are having such a rough time with your fur kids. Sending much love and hugs. It’s never easy! ❤
My heart goes out to you and your babies. Hoping for better days soon.
Holding up Molly & Kitten with all our ❤ ❤ here Jen! I will ask the Universe to send you the people you want & need. I find htere is such a HUGE disconnect between everyone…..Partly due to Covid & partly due to the way society is.
I am struggling with so many health issues & I'm all alone. The family have walked away. My closest friends have serious crappola in their lives to deal with…..so I am SOLO.
I will not say anything like a platitude….I will say I am here for you & you can always email me for a chat!!!
{{{hugs}}} Sherri-Ellen (BellaSita) & ***purrss*** BellaDharma
Sending love and healing thoughts. May peace be yours.
Wow ! I can send purrayers and Power of the Paw to your animals. I pretty much have my cats to bond with, so I am not much help.
Purrs and prayers to Kitten and Molly from all of us.
Sending love to the 3 of you!
Love you – you’re a good and devoted momma. And your heart and condor inspire
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Sending love, good thoughts, and positive energy your way, Jen. And to Kitten and Molly, too.
Oh dear, we had a kitten who did the same thing. She turned out to be the bravest, funniest of all our cats. Here’s to the dimes turning up very regularly…
She is amazing and I love her dearly, as do the other kitties. Thank you! Dimes are needed.
I hear you sister! The Universe will provide! Some physical presence to keep me company would be nothing to sneeze at right about now! Good Luck! Cheers,H
Sending warm thoughts of peace with a few gentle souls (and dimes) to help you carry your load.
I am sending you positive vibes. I feel slightly defeated to. Whenever I feel like there is no gray cloud hanging above me, bam! I get one lightning strike. But, my way of dealing? Trying to find the positive side to all the BS that goes on around me. Faith and Karma….right?
I don’t believe in karma but I do have a lot of faith in me.
What’s that song…all you need is faith and love?
I prefer “The Greatest Love of All”
Trauma healing for humans may be a real challenge. Especially repeat trauma. We encounter much of it every day, often these people have to soldier on without medical help or counseling.
It is hard, but I am at the place in the process where the boil has ruptured and needs to heal.
I can understand that. I have also seen decades of the most acute human suffering, most who just had to make do without any help. I am trying to bring perspective. Twenty years ago, due to malnutrition, I had to open several boils the hard way.
Oh, trying to shame me or minimize my pain? Yours is greater? How sad that you have nothing better to do on a Sunday, oh religious one. 🙄
No, I am just pointing out the dire human need that gets ignored by supposed civilized nations.