How would you rate your confidence level?
I’m going to be blunt: I am absolutely confident in my abilities to get a job done.
If I’m not performing, it’s either A) I don’t believe in the mission or B) there’s an obstacle in my path.
What I am not confident in is my ability to deal with those who block my success by refusing to accept me as is or at the very least meet me in the middle. They don’t want to put forth the effort with me. They label me a problem. That does not compute in my neurodivergent brain and I lack the skills to address it. What I need is an advocate in the workplace. What I typically lack in the workplace is an advocate.
When I was younger I believed all that bullshit about hard work eventually paying off. I learned the hard way employers would rather sacrifice a high-performer than accommodate them. That’s why my work history is so colorful. Sadly any one of those employers could have had a wonderful employee if only they’d been willing to try. None of them did.
As an aside, this is why I hold no sympathy for those who claim to struggle to find employees who stay. If you were a decent human being and an accommodative employer you’d have no problem.
BTW if you happen to be looking for someone who has all the confidence in the world with the skills to back it up and you are willing to work outside the box to ensure I reach my potential, give me a holler. It might turn out to be the best work-related thing to happen to both of us.
Dogpaddling Through Life 
I hope you find something where the real you can shine!
Thanks. Me too.
Never put on Queen.
I got side tracked.
I miss Freddy.
A perfect song for your post. Freddie was amazing. And so are you. Never forget either.
Now that’s a subject near and dear to TW’s heart! She was a hard worker who always got the job done early. Her male co-worker who was also a “supervisor” spent all day either outside smoking or gossiping in someone’s office. In return SHE had to stay late to finish HIS work cos they figured she didn’t have enough work since she never had to work overtime. I hope you find what you’re looking for but really don’t think those jobs/managers exist.
Yeah I don’t either, but I don’t have the money to open my pet store so I will keep hopping around until I die.
PS it really should be legal to bitch slap people who are lazy like that.
I remember when Queen first came on the scene. What an explosion of energy! Their harmony blew me away. Freddy was an incredible performer! I could go on and on and on and on…!
Okay, getting to the issue at hand 😁
I have absolutely no confidence in myself due to the amount of neglect and abuse I had been through the whole of my childhood. The multiple concussions my parents had gifted me with were no help either.
I’m planning on addressing this in my own blog because it is a huge subject to write on.
I lost every job I ever had. It’s not because I couldn’t do any of my jobs. I was (still am) different. At the time I didn’t know I was on the spectrum. All I knew was there was something different about me. I just couldn’t put my finger on why. Nobody else needed to know I was on the spectrum either. They didn’t have to. All they knew was I was different.
Like you, I never had an advocate. Not just in job situations. In every situation, at every turn, I met nothing but opposition. So, I can really relate with you on this and I hope things change for the better for you. People like us need to find a niche and become entrepreneurs. I really do. Have you ever thought about going in that direction? I’ll bet you’d be so good at forging your own path!
I have but I have no clue how to access capital.
Do you have any ideas on the steps you need to take in order to do so?
I can start with my trusty friend Google. She rarely lets me down.