When I asked for your good wishes on my birthday, I had no idea how important those positive messages would be for me. Continue reading
Happy birthday to me! I am 50+ years young. It’s not that I’m ashamed of my age, but I probably shouldn’t give away my DOB here. I’m actually proud how long I’ve lasted; a lot of chronically depressed people don’t make it this far. This is the first birthday I can recall not being depressed. … Continue reading
It’s springtime in the South, and the trees are covered with tiny leaf buds, the daffodils are merrily prancing in the breeze and love is in the air! Well, kinda. The one thing I’ve noticed about this place since I moved back – and especially since I’m no longer burdened with depression – is that … Continue reading
This is for you. You know who you are. The Law of Conservation of Mass Air is matter. And it mattered when you and I lay together that your hot breath shocked my nerve endings and your soft lips rendered me defenseless as you took me to that sacred space and sacrificed me to the … Continue reading
Last week I passed the halfway point in my NeuroStar transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS) treatment, so I thought I’d give you an update. I’ve noticed improvement in how I feel, my energy level, and my ability to focus. For example, before I began treatment, I’d make sure I did all my pet chores (feed, walk … Continue reading
I started the NeuroStar TMS treatment Tuesday. Several people have expressed interest in the treatment so I’ll share what it’s been like for me thus far. NeuroStar transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS) targets, “key areas of the brain that are underactive in people with depression (NeuroStar website).” This treatment is for those of us who have … Continue reading
I met with my therapist this week and she made a shocking announcement to me: “You are no longer depressed.” Wow! Really? I knew I’d been thinking that, but to have an objective observer who knows me well to say so is affirming. So what does a person who has suffered with depression for much … Continue reading
There is nothing more beautiful to me than a sincere smile. I’ll never forget a story my friend Lynn once told me of the most beautiful woman she’d ever met in her life. Lynn said that when she first met the woman, all she saw was a scarred and weathered old face, but then the … Continue reading
When wading hip-deep through the Swamp of Depression, I thought I was just hurting on the inside. Now that I’m exiting the swamp, I can see a panoramic view of my depression. This morning I saw a photo of me during a recent volunteer activity for a political candidate, and I saw my physical size … Continue reading
Last Saturday I took my car through the car wash. Afterward I vacuumed and wiped down the interior. So what? So that’s the first time I’d done that in several months, even though I’d wanted to. I’ve wanted to write blog posts. Clean my apartment. Do laundry. I’ve wanted to feel better. Depression is insidious … Continue reading
